Every time I scan through the manga these pages leave me stumped, I dunno if it’s just a weird translation but I couldn’t ever figure out what’s going through Killua’s head? Anybody have any insight on this or know if it’s just a bad translation that’s making it hard to decipher?
There are some people that praised, after reading our posts about HxH, our attention to details. But raising that hidden detail cannot deserve enough congratulations, considering the importance it has, as we will show now that we have studied it properly.
For the potential readers, the two pictures above are taken from Tome 26, Chapter 271, during the Chimera Ants arc, just before Gon and Killua find Neferpito.
First, let’s say that it seems absolutely normal to us not to understand anything there, for two reasons. The first one comes from the translation, which is a bit inaccurate. The second one comes from an intentional ellipsis from Togashi, as even Japanese people wondered about the meaning of Killua’s question.
About the translation : there seems to be some inaccuracy in the second part of the page, where Killua actually says, to sum it up (and according to our understanding), that due to his fear to lose something important, he did not manage to even get close to the road that those who are experienced reach : the road that allows you to solve a situation by speaking frankly (about what is on your mind).
This refers to the question “Which one ?”, that would allow him to clear the doubts on his mind if he dared to ask Gon.
Now, that question is actually incomprehensible, even in Japanese. It seems to have been a rather frequently asked question when we tried to search information about it. And we found an excellent analysis (in Japanese) which notices that this question can only be understood much later, in Tome 30, Chapter 316, Page 12. The real question that remains all the time on Killua’s mind was therefore the following : “Let’s go… as teammates, or as friends ? Which one ?”
There, you realize once more how Gon is important to Killua, as in the middle of a very dangerous mission that may affect the world’s peace, his main concern remains how Gon considers him.
And we then understand that the moment we all remember, when Gon dismisses him, saying that he has “nothing to do with it”, becomes the height of cruelty for Killua. At this moment, he is not only dismissed; he gets the answer to the question he did not dare to ask (or at least, he thinks he gets his answer, since Gon may have answered otherwise if asked directly).
In other words, the detail you raised is one more precious key Togashi gave us to understand the depth of Killua’s feelings towards Gon. Hats off to you for having noticed it, and to the person who wrote the analysis that gave us the solution about its actual meaning.
Ah wow, thank you for this! I guess there was such a large gap between this scene and the hospital scene that I didn’t make the connection. It always bothered me when I read it because I couldn’t figure out what this part meant but I could tell it was significant.
As if these two couldn’t get any more heartbreaking than they already are. This just adds fuel to the fire. It definitely makes Gon’s blatant rejection of him that much more of a punch to the gut considering how strongly Killua’s feelings for Gon were shown in the chimera ant arc. He devotes so much to Gon only to be severed from him when all he wants to do is help (and has a mental breakdown because of that fact in a situation where he was about to be killed).
Thanks again for the in depth explanation! I’m glad to finally gain some clarity on this since it kept bothering me, sickeningly sad though the answer is haha.
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